Inspirtation down-low

I haven't blogged in a while. Mostly since there's nothing to blog about due to lack of inspiration. Hardly any my favorite bloggers are blogging much per week, so I'm pretty much stuck reading old magazines and worrying about school. I don't want to, but there's nothing else TO think about.

Family isn't fun to think about since other than my immediate family, I'm pretty much sick of being neglected and whatnot, and I'm not about to go all 2006 on them. I'm okay on my own, I guess I kind of expect it now.

School is school, with lots of work and no time. Or, I don't use my time wisely. Then there are clubs, like dance, which was gratefully cancelled today.

Other than it's been boring, lots of crying. I swear, these past two days have been: get up, go to school, go home, go upstairs, close the door, cry, go on the computer, almost check-out shoes then realize I have no money, watch tv, sleep. Yes, I make no time for homework. I pretty much look forward to something during school, then go home and find out that it's out of the question. I'm afraid that lately (or maybe my whole life) I have been just holding in these feelings then blocking them out, only to later think about them and break down. For stupid reasons or not, it's hard, and obviously not working out for me. As a quiet person who never speaks up, I can never get these feelings out into the open until my break-down point. Until now, of course, I have blogging. I'm reluctant about this because this is one of the ways I am brought down, so in a way, it's hypocritical.

Hopefully, it'll go away. Though, I think if I tried writing this metaphorically, it would cheer me up. It used to be so easy, with friends who made me laugh. I had such a positive outlook, and everything was just fine. Now, their gone, and now the friends I have only have jokes I can't understand, and I just laugh along. It's not enough to patch up all the bad things. They sort of outweigh the good things/times/moments. I might be a little dramatic, but I always was.

A little inspiration to lighten me up a bit? Please?

Please sir, may I have some Mohr?

Today I...

Went to school(for once), came home, ate, took a nap, ate again, and looked aimlessly for male models (ooh! yum yum gimme some! ). They're like marble statues, perfectly chiseled and structured perfectly..must be gay!

Except for Mr. Cole Mohr. It's hard to believe when most of the editorials and ads he's featured in portray him very very feminine-like (Marc by Marc Jacobs ad. Duhh).

Never Ever.

Get your hopes up on ebay. Ever.


Those minnetonkas..you already know the outcome ): I waited hours to put in a high bid a few minutes before it ended, only to be outbid. Geez people, how much do you want them????

I know I wanted it more than __________________________________________________________
this much. Just giving you an idea.

Shoeless.

I honestly have no shoes. I think that's a major reason I don't post pictures of my outfits..

So anywho, I only own two main pairs, these ankle boots I just bought from f21, and some shiny Vince Camuto moccasins I bought a while back at Nordstrom Rack. Then I have some sneakers (e.g. ugly vans, and converse), and the rest are flip flops/gladiators. I mean seriously, flip flops 5 days a week are nauseating and disappointing, agreed?

Which brings me to my point. I need new shoes (obviously)! I did my "research", and as an ending result, I came up with these:





Oh, and I might get these, because I would be stupid not to take advantage of that price. I'm only getting the charcoal one (though they come in a suede version as well..). They remind me of these, kinda. They're totally in my budget..

..and if I win the minnetonkas of ebay, it will equal roughly: $130. Is that reasonable?

And lastly, I went shopping today and found this (the one in front), but my mom and the pricetag talked me out of it. I leave you with my would-be Christmas dress, where-art-thou?

Pivovarovavovovaverovawhatever..

Sasha Pivovarova !


The fact that this pictorial thingy features Dhani Harrison,(whom I am obsessed w/, maybe because of his unmistakable resemblance to his father, George Harrison..) made me read and love this till the end of time. So forever stuck on my walls, I realized the muse was super stunnnnnning. Of course, this is Sasha Pivovarova. Not to mention the beautiful fur. BEAUTIFUL. My favorite pictoria forever and ever and a day..



I could of just posted a link to these but I had to show it.

Insomnia.

It's almost 4:30, and I haven't slept. Ugh, Monday, the start of another week.

My weekend was good. I mean, there was Halloween on Friday..then Disneyland on Saturday. We rode 20+ rides, including Tower of Terror and California Screamin' from Cali Adventures. If I said there was lots of walking, that would be an understatement. No pictures were taken, on account of forgetting my camera and my dad not being there. Slept most of Sunday till 6:00, and never slept since. Buuut, I always hear/learn about drama at the end of it, which makes my weeks very hard. Then the stress added on from the week..even harder. Watch as I fall into depression people.

I leave you w/ the Vogue Nippon November issue w/ Erin Wasson. It's titled Soul City and features the clothing for Comme des Garcons line for H&M. Perfeccccctioon.








I really wish I could stay in and watch chick flicks all day, ones that only happen in movies, ones my naive mind still believes can happen. I need to be put in a room for a week to just do that. I need a break.