If I had the guts, maybe I'd cut my hair that short. My favorites being Keira's and Audrey's (of course).
On a lighter note (since I can't bear the though of my hair being chopped off thaaat short), I am going to D'land w/ my cousins (the same ones that gave me that migrane last weekend) tomorrow. Yes, I love them to death, so maybe it's a sign I should stay away from them for a while longer..Which will never happen. I will see them, it's like, inevitable. Oh and, I haven't been to Disneyland in aaages, so this will be fun fun fun (: But will interfere with my party plans once again.
Did everyone have a happy halloween ? I sure didn't. Well, I got a crapload of candy, which will probably supply me for a week of so (ha! okaay, maybe 3?), but my father has been getting on my case all day. On everyone's, though my mom NEVER seems to mind. Maybe he's like, on his period. Ew, how gross.
Night. Hopefully I'll FOR ONCE post up pictures of myself tomorrow, though my clothing will probably be majorly casual and nothing-much-at-all-ish. It's Disneyland. If I was going to that party, on the other hand...
Kate Moss Christmas collection came out today, and I'm utterly pissed. I was about to buy this, and whadya know. It's out of stock. The fashion gods hate me. Ughh, I want it sooo bad.
Maybe I'll just buy these. Which could never look half as good as Erin Wasson wore them here..
Today I was an emotional wreck. I guess it's just one of those days.
Like seriously, you don't understand (and neither do I) why I felt so under the weather. I was like using my hair to cover my face as I cried silently. It was hard, being w/ lots of family members in a public restaurant. I was seriously vulnerable to everything they said. Whether how it was how I haven't been going to functions as often (which I don't understand, because the only one I didn't go to this week was the encore, and dude, I don't have that kind of money. I felt I was being hassled and pressured, which are why my family (sidenote: cousins, mainly), can get on my every nerve), or just the usual put-downs about my personality or whatever. I just really wanted to spend my day w/ the mom, dad, brother, maybe even grandparents, where I could be myself w/o being insulted. One of my cousins was ultra-annoying w/ her ditziness that I really wasn't in the mood for, and the other was just constantly nagging me about how I haven't been around much. Is it reaaaaally their business about my relationship w/ MNI and what I do on my own time ? So really, this was what topped-off my day, since I didn't do anything yesterday (longer story to an already long story) which really upset me, and all I really want to do is just lay in bed for a week and watch Sex and the City and blog.
So sorry for any unknown or non-existent readers for this load of crap I had to get off my shoulders. I guess if I wanted readers, I'd start posting up the outfits, and cut the diary entries. Thing is, I haven't got much to post (outfit-wise) due to lack of money. I think I'm going thrifting tomorrow, so hopefully I'll find something good.
Other than that, I'm looking forward to a lot of diy:
The Raquel Allegra t-shirts(above) are waaay out of my budget, so I'm just gonna try to follow the Childhood Flames tutorial(below).
The Norwegian Wood Chain Harness(below) designed by Michelle Yue is also too much, so I'll try to do it Lulu's way (above; unless I can attempt Michelle's).
The cut leggings (Balmain) that everyone is doing-themselves:
Oh, and those precious studded moccasins/boots we all want:
That many a blogger have already done successfully.
I was on Urban Original and I found some Jessica Simpson knockoff's. As in, the boots from last last post.
Other than that, today a day of decisions. My friend's party is today, and I have to dress in a Halloween costume. Well, when you don't have a costume, a gift, and your parent's want to go to Palm Springs and shop, the choice is rather easy. But this is like a reeeeeally close friend of mine. I was looking forward to it this week, considering that it's a party. I knew I needed to find one, and fast. I was thinking between a chola or a grape, which are both diy. There's gonna be Mexican's at her party, and I didn't want to offend anyone, and you can't dance in a grape costume (people are bound to pop my balloon grapes anyways..). I feel bad. But this is my family whom I haven't spent any quality time with in weeeeeeeks. The party is at 6. And I'm going to be BOTHERED constantly on Monday by friends who had "lots of fun! why didn't you go?!".
My day. Was pretty good up until now. I mean, school was chill, not like hardcore boring you would expect from a 2 hour class. I did have detention for being tardy, but since I had to be productive, I got my regular procrastinated homework done on time. Actually, half of it. I'm barely starting some right now. That's 'sides the point. These past two-three months of school have gone by fast (with an exception of those few bad days. we all have them, don't trip), mostly 'cause my positive outlook. With MNI's recent visit, and all the youth uniting once more, I thought things might get better. I thought maybe we'd just put our problems aside and try to live a good life, but it's depressing really. What I see just by looking at myspace. OUR GOAL HERE is to not live the same life we lived yesterday, but improve & change it. Course, it can't be done overnight. Who am I to judge, though? I just hope that's what we're doing. I guess I need to focus on myself rather than others. But um, I understand we all have our own problems, so I hope you all get through them w/ MNI in mind, k? Some of you may not have a clue what I'm reffering to, but honestly, this blog is what I call "versatile or unisex" haha. It goes for everyone. Don't lie, we all have some type of drama. Just try to get through it w/ a smile, not mattttter the issue. Try to be understanding. Yes, I am optimistic, can you tell?! Well anywhooo, we all busy too. I may not be as busy as I make myself, 'cause I manage my time incorrectly. For example, I should be doing homework. Or I should have like houuuuurs ago. Then I could've worried about my other issues. So thee end.
I needa halloween costume for my friend's party. Or else I can't get in ): I was thinking those diy grapes from aa's website of a chola ! Haha, laugh w/ me. Like I said in my last blog, I'm gonna shop in LA tomorrow. Or today, it's already the 24th. GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODNIGHT this time forsure. Prayers !
Ideas ? I've been browsingEndless.com for badly needed shoes. I mean it, I honestly don't have shoes. Flip flops are so gross and I find myself wearing them DAILY. So tomorrow, I might head to L.A. and hit up Chinatown for really cheapy items & maybe some better made items elsewhere over there. Anywho..my picks w/ rubber soles:
Jessica Simpson Lopez Bootie
Vince Camuto Calder Ankle Boot
I also liked these N.Y.L.A. Plus Bootie. I reaaaaaally like those J. Simpson Lopez Boots. They're #$%^&* insane ! But so are the Camuto's. You should see them in Antique Red(: Night.
I loveeeee red. Pants. and lots of mesh. Well, we all know Balmain's fall collection is gold, w/ all the red pants, animal prints, & metallic accents.
Oh my. Those snakes and that RED. like my whole fall/winter will be a total update. i'll be punk-ish and edgy w/ the exception of lotttts of lace to girl it up a bit. is that cliche? anyways, also some diy cut leggings. check out these cheap mondays. more diy.
Other than that, had a good day, early start. A Time For Us last night was reeeeeeal good. I promise that when I'm old enough, I'll join the next musical (: And a note for you coffee lovers..Pumpkin Spice Lattes..mmmm...Can't wait for Christmas for the Gingerbread & Candycane ones! Night (:
Traveler. Yes, I am a traveler, but that is the name of one of the magazines I randomly receive from the mail. I like it (: Lots and lots of pictures of foreign lands I can only dream of visiting. But in it, they seem to have an eye for fashion, which is pretty inevitable if your a world traveler. I think it was in this month's issue that they had a story called The Lady Vanishes, a feature on how to dress on a cruise ship.
I have to say, blogging works wonders. People, I give you "Les Parapluies de Cherbourg" (translation: the title of this post).
Long, long ago, little Gaby was terribly bored and decided to accept the fact that her cable was removed (momentarily). She flipped through her limited amount of channels, until the black and white fuzz signaled her limit. In vain, she angrily flipped through the fuzz (& more fuzz..) until she discovered there were clear channels in the 90's & 100's. Her love for the French & their language (especially at that time) caused her to stop at what seemed like a French musical. She read the subtitles with great fervor:
Daughter: Mother, I have something to tell you.
Mother: Yes, Genevive.
Daughter: I love him.
Or something like that.
Gaby was unsure of what she was referring to, which added to her interest (keep in mind this was in French, in a wonderfully inspirational and colorful [oh the colors!] Parisian umbrella shop, and sung!). Note: Right now, Gaby really wants to explode and type out the entire story, but YOU MUST SEE IT for yourself. She says.
Anyways, yes, I must thank Starbucks and Jane Austen for posting a blog and sparking my memory. I was really obsessed. TERRIBLY obsessed when I saw this. I was so saddened, I shared it with all my friends back in the 7th grade. They didn't care, oh well. They had enough drama of their own anyways. Noow, it is an inspiration in a "fashion-lover's point-of-view", rather than my old "French-loving, lovesick, chick flick watcher's point-of-view", though I am still that. I kind of like the simpler days with like, 20 channels and the 5 hidden ones. But we all want VH1 Classic. Or it's just me. (: Now go watch it!
PS. My blogger "role models" keep talking about Roison Murphy & Vanessa Treina. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, icons of the moment. You know you want Vanessa's Balmain minnetonkas !
PSS and since I'm adding all this random crap in, umm..I forgot nvm. I AM LAAAME !!!
Earlier this morning and last night I felt like a hippie on ecstasy pills. My metaphor could not be worse considering the subject, but that's what comes to mind. My reason for feeling high on cloud 9 would probably not be believable to readers, so I won't say what it is. As fast as it came, it's gone.
The feeling, that is. I feel so guilty, for the way I've acted, as if this "event" had not just happened last night. I should be happy and loving, and CHANGING. Oh course, I'll just have to take fault for my actions.
I know that there are people who let their imagination go wild, so whatever it is you're thinking, that's probably not it. I will tell you though, I am highly religious Catholic.
Anyways, didn't do much today. Went to On the Border and Target, where I was the worst of the worst. I was absent again due to last night's event, so it'll be tough catching up. Again, I'm feeling so NOT "under the grace."
"Everything my Father makes is perfect, it is man that makes it ugly."
Oh man. Stresssssssssed. And it worries me incredibly that I'm only a high school freshman AND it's only the beginning of the year. Thank God it's Friday. Really, thank God.
So because of stress (namely because I pull all-nighters one night, and because of my exhaustion from the previous night, fall asleep the minute I get home and wake up th next day. You can only imagine morning homework crams), I haven't been able to blog. People, never procrastinate. Then you can't blog and you get bad grades (not to mention, you have to miss Sex and City!).
My fashion inspiration is at an all-time down-low since my duration of fashion blogging, and I find myself clueless in the mornings since I don't know what to wear. I haven't been anywhere except school, and I can't find much inspiration there. I mean, it's not that they don't try, it's that they try too much. Following trends is inevitable for me, but mainstream is the epitome of my school. Or the other way around. I like finding inspiration in anywhere it's not expected. Actually, no. Just any place with anything not mainstream. Basically, I need to get out and be inspired. I have become a slave to homework & not managing my time correctly. Distributive Property: Rushing(No inspiration + much homework cramming) = Late. As if I've ever been punctual.
BUT, above all, I have not made enough time for my spiritual life, my church group, all that is important to me. Don't get me wrong, I pray still (guilty of forgetting, sorry God !), try my best to live a highly spiritual life, etc. I just really need at least a week extension of summer break. *Deep breath*.
So I'm done. Why is that I can write an essay nobody wants to read and not do my homework ? Reality bites !
I think I'm gonna start taking pictures. For no reason (or so this blog has something other than words!). :)
